Yes I have a Muse. Why she hasn’t tossed me aside like a bad boyfriend I don’t know. But she has stuck through all of it with me for years. Through the years that I ignored her. The years that I thought I was smarter than her. She even stayed during the years that I didn’t believe in her any more.
But somehow – through my fear, indifference and snark she persisted. She let me know that she hadn’t given up on me.
Looking back I think I had a misunderstanding of how my Muse has worked through me. I believe that our muse can show up in different ways for vastly different projects. You know those projects that seem to eat your soul like process mapping a warehouse procedure or the meticulous digital workflow of a new technology. I didn’t sense any muse with me then. Those tasks appeared void of any creativity and it just seemed like work. It seemed empty.
But what if the creativity that my muse was bringing was really the ability to solve those problems while getting through the day in a job that I wasn’t ready to leave yet.
Apparently my Muse was that buddy in the trenches throughout all of that. Perhaps I had romanticized her far too much and really she’s way more of a grit filled hustler when the doubting years require it.
As much as I like the Steven Pressfield’s depiction of the professional not tolerating disorder in The War of Art “He wants the carpet vacuumed and the threshold swept, so the Muse may enter and not soil her gown.” My Muse is clearly Wonder Woman battling it out and occasionally wearing a different a costume .
I wasn’t very grateful at the time. Now I am. I can see how my Muse showed up and stayed with me as we battled one fire after another.
My Muse, I owe you an apology.I’m done with not being grateful for your creative magic. You are a far better friend than I was and finally I understand that. Thank you. Here’s to our continued adventures with a keener sense of appreciation and certainly a better workspace.
I have a better workspace because that was a Done With That decision as well. I’ld like to share a list of the top 10 most common things the women that I have worked with this year have declared that they are done with. It’s a beautiful infographic mini-manifesto – I am Done With That! Click here for it.
Get it, put it somewhere you will see it daily and use it to encourage you to use this or create your own.